The Apples of My Eye

My two innocent children look up to me for strength. I know, though, that no matter how I teach them to look up to God as their only hope, their young minds will not completely comprehend what I mean. What they only know that their papa is far from us and living alone. They only have me. For them I know I need to keep going, get strength from God, and eventually bring hope to my kids.

The persistent prayers of my nina keep reminding me of gracious God who works in a thousand ways of which we know nothing. My little Paola persistently prays for her papa to come home. My heart breaks into pieces each time I hear her ernest prayers. I didn't want her, however, to have false hopes every night as she's looking outside the door hoping her papa will come home. To spare her from further pain, I decided to talk with her and explain that the possibility of her papa coming back home every day may never happen because of his kind of profession. During an evening prayer, I heard my eldest daughter pray one of the most beautiful prayers I have ever heard. "Jesus, thank you for this trial that came our way I know papa live apart because he needs to do so, I know and I feel papa loves us, I am happy that I am their daughter and I love and proud that I am a member of this family bless my family, bless my tatay and nanay, my titos and titas and most esp. the sailors sailing their ships a long and wide ocean because papa is one of them amen". It was like music to listen to a prayer of a 7 yrs. old child full of hope and satisfaction. This child of mine is slowly growing up physically, emotionally and spiritually.

At countless times, when the whole world is asleep, I stay awake staring at my sleeping kids, and my heart breaks as I look at my lovely 4 yrs. old Paola. This is her second chance of life... I remember during the time when she's almost gone.... ! I don't know what lies ahead of us, at that moment but I know of one truth- that every drop of tear, every cry for help, and even the faintest prayers are heard by my Father in heaven, Paola was saved! . I believe God has wonderful plans for my family. As God's loyal child, my hope lies in the truth that God will always deliver the best for my family. No one can stand in God's way in fulfilling His purpose for me.